Black and White Snapshot

just saying hi!

Current Location: Sorin
Current Music: I Love New York

This weekend has been amazingly amazing. Friday I took it easy, but it was still filled with happy moments and good times even if Gunther is ruining my life. Saturday looked sooooo bleak. The Irish were not in top form out on the field, until the last quarter and then it was a whole new ballgame. After the most amazing Irish victory (possibly ever) there was an hour long party in the fountain outside my dorm. It seemed like the whole school was there. There was singing and chanting. Cheering and jigging. It was freezing cold and I was soooo wet, but it was all worth it there is something about singing the alma mater with your school mates after a game like that that makes everything worth the consequences. ( I am now dying of the SARS!) We then decided to go out and there was stolen alcohol, bonfires, steak and shake, wet panties (long story) and good friends. I ♥ this weekend. I talked to my mom and to Chris. FYI I'll be home for a week in October for Fall Break. Can't wait to see everyone. Well I should be doing homework. I'll let ya'll know the next time something awesome happens. ♥ all of ya'll.

Current Music: Lindsay Lohan - Rumors

I dont' actually have anything to say, but I felt like writing. Hola to everyone I haven't talked to in forever!

Current Location: The Quad with my roommates
Current Mood: Its going to be okay
Current Music: Fans

So the last couple of weeks have been whirlwind interesting and so many things have happened. I don't know yet about this one, but its been rattling in my head for a bit. Edric and I have been over for almost a year now and we have been apart for even longer it seems. He has decided that he is ready to move on. He has fallen in love with someone else. All of this prompted me to wonder if I was ready. I've dated since Edric, but I haven't been too interested in a relationship. Lately, though I'm sick of the hook-up. It was sad someone put there arms around me and held me for a minute and I felt as though the world would collapse if he let go. There have been a few where I have thought a relationship would be nice, but something is always off or wrong. I think I'm ready to be in a relationship. I'd like to be. Maybe there is someone I'm involved with that I would be okay dating, but let me tell you from experience that this time next year, we will be having this same conversation. There is a list of reasons.
1. I like you, you don't like me.
2. You like me, I don't like me.
3. You like me, I don't like you.
4. We're friends.
5. Distance.
6. Time.
7. Edric.
8. I'm not ready.
9. I don't trust you.
10. I don't trust me.
11. < insert reason here>
I hope I'm just making excuses.
BTW I kinda like the single life. just FYI

Current Mood: restless
Current Music: Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine

So you know how i said that my room situation would be the ultimate shit show of ultimate destiny? well, it has begun! I walked in at four in the morning and well. . . the dresser was upside down across the floor and there was clothes everywhere. one roommate is asleep on the floor. this was all in my bedroom so i figured my common room would be you know trashed or something, but no it wasn't. it was perfectly clean and nice and someone strung up lights and there was food. it was set for a garden party. wow. crazy life. anyway i have to be productive. but let me bitch for one minute. living with girls is dirty the bathrooms the kitchen. ewwwwwww! don't trip on skanky white g-strings!

Current Mood: say it with me, "shitshow"
Current Music: Troy & Gabriella - Breaking Free

I think i finally feel comfortable and happy being single, but it's lonely sometimes. Then I realize I'm not alone. He still loves me. I'm still His best friend. My friends will never forget me. I have the best roommates I could ask for. I have so many friends here. I love the new ones with whom my relationships grow stronger everyday. Maybe I'm not happy being single and away from family and friends. Maybe i finally realized that my family is much larger than I thought. People do care for me. They are really my friends. Unmotivated to be with me, except for the fact that they love me. Thanks for that. I love you too. I always will.

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: The Beach Boys - Wouldn't It Be Nice (Mono Version)

So i'm back in south bend and thursday was a nightmare. i hurt my back i didn't get any sleep i find out i have no place to stay i end up getting to stay in the south bend motel for free but it looks like the shadiest place ever (like the kinda place you take a hooker) and then check out was at like 11 and i started calling allie at like 10 to pick me up and take me to campus and well i ended up calling a cab at 11:30 right when she called me sounding like hell because she had had a bad night. oh well life goes on. and i'm here on campus. almost moved in and ready for the new year. oh p.s. for those of you who don't know i got a new piercing and a new tattoo.

Current Mood: i love my roommates
Current Music: the temptations - temptations + supremes - aint no mountain high enough

stuff.

Current Location: the beach
Current Mood: worn out
Current Music: criminal intent

YAY! I just finished my General Chemistry Final and it is over. No more chem! One test to go. Just laundry and packing to do. I'll be home soon. I can't wait. See all of ya'll on Saturday. So excited to be home.
Wish me luck and a safe flight.

Current Mood: I'm coming home.
Current Music: South Park Soundtrack - Back That Ass Up

This time next week I will be at home. I just turned in one of my final exams. I have four more to go. Theology, Calculus, Chemistry and Biology. I want to go home. Each day that passes brings me one step closer. I am almost finished with my freshman year of college. I am so scared that I am one step closer to the real world. The world so many of my friends already live in. So many of them have real jobs. So many have children. So many have found their significant other. So many have their penguin. I'm not ready for that. I'm not ready to grow up. I can't handle a job. I can't take care of myself much less a child. I ruined my last relationship beyond all repair. I can't make responsible decisions. I'm helpless so much of the times. I have a horrible work ethic. I'm not ready for the world and I can't hide forever. I want to be a doctor. I can't be trusted to wake up at a reasonable hour and I want people to put their health and their life into my hands. I need to grow up, but I'm to scared to do it. I guess eventually I will grow up. I just hope I'm ready for it when it happens.
Here's to the night.
Those nights we spent being kids.
Those nights we spent not thinking about the future.
Those nights we spent together.
Those nights we spent alive.
Those nights we spent crying together.
Those nights we spent hoping tomorrow would take its time in coming
Those nights we spent ditching the logical.

Here's a toast to all of those to hear me all to well because tomorrow is coming all to soon.

Current Mood: Peter Pan
Current Music: Eve 6 - Here's to the Night